Show & Tell: My Worst Fear

Olgakatt's third theme for September is nojor - stupid, irrational fears, i.e. phobias of sorts.

I don't have any particular fears, at least not anything I can think of, except perhaps the fear (which is not completely irrational or stupid) that something would happen to Peter. But it's not something I think of every day.

Hence I wasn't sure what to write today. But as always, Google saves the day. The first hit on "nojor" was a site where you can share your "dark inner thoughts" (image borrowed from site).

Some examples from the site and commentary based on personal experience:

• * Why are they looking at me? A few times I have thought this and wondered if I have something on my face or something. But it's not such a strong fear that I have to find a mirror and look. Instead I try to think that probably that guy was looking at me because he found me beautiful! :)
• * Sitting alone in a bar waiting for friends and thinking "what are people thinking? That I'm a loser sitting her my myself, a loser without friends? What if my friend doesn't show up?" This thought has sprung to mind a few times. Luckily I have an iPhone to play with while I wait these days!
• * Thinking that everyone else thinks that I have a strange walk. Just worrying about it made me walk funny. Not in this way maybe, but if you start thinking about how people walk and then how you walk, walking sure starts feeling weird and unnatural.
• * "I was at a party at a girl's place. For those days I tried to contact her because I had forgotten my hat and gloves at her place, but had no response. So I thought she was angry with me and that I had made a fool of myself somehow. Went through the whole evening in my head, all I had done and said. Wrote an e-mail and apologised for doing something stupid. Then I had a response - she was completely unsympathetic and didn't know what I was talking about." I have had thoughts like this but usually I end up thinking "nah, that's just silly, and if s/he is angry with me, it's her/his problem and s/he has to bring it up with me, not the other way around". But first I think that there's a perfectly natural explanation why the person hasn't responded yet.
• * "When I've been in a shop and not bought anything it always feels like everyone thinks I have shoplifted." Ha ha, definitely! Probably look really guilty too even if I'm completely innocent!
• * Having to return home to check that the oven or the iron is off, even if you had made it halfway to work before you had to turn around. I can only remember doing this once. But I sometimes check appliances - if I've been using them that morning - just before I leave.

That's it for me today!